Grateful
March 20, 2012
It has been one year since I started on my diet, reached my weight loss goal and began concentrating on maintaining that goal. My anniversary date was March 16th, 2012 and I weighed exactly 70 lbs. less on that day than a year ago. It is with deep gratitude that I look back on this year and realize what I have been able to accomplish. While dieting and weight loss is a personal thing and only you have ultimate control it doesn’t mean that there aren’t people around that have truly helped you get there.
This is my chance to thank all of those people. First and foremost are my husband and children. They never said anything about my weight but were so supportive when I was ready to make the change and do the work and they were very proud of me every step of the way. My mom and the rest of my family and friends were also supportive. They have seen me struggle through the years with my weight and know how hard I have worked and I want to thank them for their support. Of course I can’t forget my personal trainer, Dawn Morris, and all of my friends at the Lake Forest Recreation Center who were also an integral part of my journey. Dawn was an inspiration herself as well as being there to inspire me. She had lost 85 pounds a few years ago and had changed her life. She is now a fitness instructor, personal trainer, mentor and friend. You can check out her blog at http://fit2bfree-fit2bfree.blogspot.com/2012/03/motivation.html?spref=fb Dawn had been there so she could see through all the excuses and the struggles but she kept believing in me. I met her three years ago when I showed up to one of her Zumba classes. That one class changed my life. The other women in the class were so friendly and welcoming and I found an exercise that was fun. I actually looked forward to going and still do. It is one of my favorite times of the week. You can definitely find a Zumba class in your neighborhood. http://www.zumba.com/ Their motto is “Ditch the workout, Join the party! You can’t argue with that 🙂 Weight Watchers also deserves my gratitude because their plan gave me the tools and guidance I needed to achieve my goals. http://www.weightwatchers.com
I am so grateful to all of these wonderful people in my life and feel so blessed. Thank you all. You are my strength, my support, my everything ((Hugs))
Weight Loss Disaster
March 8, 2012
Well I knew this would not always be easy but the last three weeks have taught me a lot. I broke one of my top rules which is to only weigh myself once a week. The reason for this is that when you weigh yourself too much you get totally screwed up from day to day. If the number is good then you can enjoy the day but if the number on the scale is bad then, at least in my case, it not only ruins the day but I start sabotaging myself. It becomes a vicious cycle.
Let me start at the beginning of my ordeal. My husband and I were going on vacation and I was really monitoring what I was eating because I wanted to enjoy my vacation. Well, we decided to have a nice Valentine’s dinner with the family on Sunday, Feb. 12th and then of course we had to have another special meal on the 14th. When I weighed myself on that Wednesday I weighed 134.6. I freaked out because we were leaving the next week and that was getting on the high end of my accepted range for myself. So of course I weighed myself again on Thursday the 15th and I was at 132.4. All was well with the world until I weighed myself on Tuesday before we left for our trip and I weighed 135. This was crazy. How could I be all over the map like this. Something must be wrong with the scale. Right? Yikes 
This was not a fun way to start a trip.
Breaking my cardinal rule yet again I weighed myself on the hotel scale two days later and it read 131.2. Boy did I feel stupid and drained from all this worrying about weight. Now I could enjoy the trip. I didn’t go crazy but I did eat things that normally I wouldn’t like bread ( I am telling you though it was worth it because the bread was amazingly delicious 🙂 and sinful desserts but I also exercised about an hour every day so I figured things would even out. Well I hoped they would. No I didn’t obsess the whole time and I did stop weighing myself which was a good thing. And I did feel pretty good wearing some of the new clothes I got to buy because none of my summer clothes from last summer fit anymore. This is one of the best things about losing weight I must say. We had a great time and then came back home back to reality.
Against my better judgement I weighed myself the next day because it was Wednesday which is my weigh-in day and I needed to assess the damage and move on. The scale read 138 and this time I really flipped out. This could not be right and of course I blamed myself which I tend to do and it is not helpful. I also took my scale out of the bathroom and brought in another one I had recently bought and yes I weighed myself the next day and it read 135.4. Better but still not good. You can see how tormented I get but I do not want to go back to my old ways and I am petrified that that will happen. Anyway, I digress. I just didn’t like this scale and my old one had really seen me through good times and bad so I went out and bought new batteries, gave it a little pat and put it back in the bathroom. I also immediately went back on the Weight Watchers plan and diligently tracked for the next week. This is the beauty of having a plan because I didn’t have to think about it. I knew it backward and forwards and put it back on like an old favorite sweater. I also did not weigh myself again until yesterday which is my regular weigh in day and I am back down to 132.6. HALLELUJAH !
Whew that was tiring but a good lesson in many ways. Whether you are losing weight or maintaining weight you have to have a plan. This is what gets you through the rough patches. You should also always abide by your rules because they are your rules for a reason. Thirdly, and this one is hard for me to remember and follow. Be as proud or prouder of yourself over your victories as you are disappointed at yourself over your failures.
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