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It is now the middle of January and some of us have already abandoned those pesky New Year’s resolutions. It’s hard when the holidays are over and there is not a lot to look forward to. Sometimes change is daunting and it is just easier to fall back into bad habits.

My resolutions this year are different for the first time in many years. I’ve been overweight for much of my life and have become accustomed to the title. However, last March I was tired of being fat and ready to do something about it. No more excuses. It wasn’t easy but I had done a lot of the work before hand and in nine months I lost 70 pounds and am the lightest I’ve ever been in my adult life. It feels fabulous and I am truly grateful but I also know that I may have won a battle ( a big one I know) but I have not won the war. Maintaining a big weight loss is a monumental task. You only have to pick up the closest magazine at the check out line to see pictures of stars who have put weight back on. This year I will be writing about my struggles (because I know there will be some) and my successes ( I know there will be those too). My two constants will be 1. weighing myself once a week every week and printing it in my blog (my weigh-in day is Wednesday) and 2. having a 5 lb. rule. If at any time my weight is 5 lbs. over my current weight I am back full force on my weight loss plan to get it off. NO EXCUSES.

The first big issue (no pun intended) is to realize that I am not fat anymore. This is tough for anyone who has been a fat kid or fat for a long time. Once a fat kid always a fat kid. It never goes away. I’ve noticed a lot of people bringing this up recently. Governor Chris Christie of New Jersey spoke of it when he was interviewed on Oprah last Sunday and the new episode of New Girl  which aired this week on the Fox network also touched upon it. The character, Schmidt, was overweight as a kid and into his early adult life and he was still fighting the images he had of himself that had been formed then. Those feelings of shame and frustration are always there lingering beneath the surface. It is time to change the image. I’m ready!  Current Weight: 134